Sick Twisted Life

Today is my birthday... BLAH FUCKING BLAH

I am never found of my birthday... no matter how much I prepare myself for it to suck... I'm still always surprised it does!

I don't like getting older, seeing the lines on my face, the way the skin starts to sag!

BLAH FUCKING BLAH

Yeah yeah yeah I know it beats the alternative... but BLAH

billyboy and I celebrated the occasion yesterday with an early b-day blowjob. The beautiful boy and his SO are coming over this evening to take me to dinner... so the boys have done their part. I know they worry.

I'm chatting up a new boy, well not really new, I've known him for awhile and played with him on several occasions but that was many years ago. I am very please at the chance to have a new shiney! And I will play him brutally and well until all the shiney is worn off. Catch & Release. The last thing I need is ANOTHER boy. There is 'poly' and 'you are just being a greedy bitch' And while I am definitely a greedy bitch even I have my limits. Three "relationships" is just too damn many!!!!

Too bad the new boy... "rubber boy"... isn't bi... FUCK... need another bi boy... just having one is a stupid evil tease!!! BLAH

The beautiful boy and I hit the leather bar tonight. Normal I leave the boy's bar to the boys, but 1st Friday is "Leather Night." So I shoulder my way through men to back bar and chat with the several of my friends. Every month it takes the men I don't know a while to warm up to me... to figure out what's what.

Where I live there are only a few Leatherwomen and most of them are Leatherdikes and wouldn't be caught dead in a men's Leatherbar. I have my core of Leathermen friends and by the time the evening is finished I've had a grand time. The beautiful boy is always on his best behavior at these gatherings. He drools silently over the Daddy Bears in the crowd. I play knock the boy around and invite one of the men in on it. I usually only pimp him at away events. We have a certain reputation to uphold and I don't want my boys known as meat. Your reputation is all you have. But this is just good clean fun.

I didn't feel like talking this evening... I felt like hurting him while I fucked him... I placed the hood over his head... the one with only a mouth opening... Then I tied him the fuck up... I played with his cock until it was rock hard... I slowly lowered myself onto his cock and began fucking him... rougher & rougher, faster & faster... he start to strain to meet me... I slap him across the face and laugh... "you are my bitch"... "yes ma'am I'm your bitch"

It was all about me... about my need to pound his cock into myself... devour him.

I was fuck and slapping and pinching and biting... he asks if he can cum... "No you piece of shit you can't cum." He starts begging me to stop, so I intensify the pain. He'll do anything to cum now, anything to stop the pain. I have my hand across his throat, the closer I come to orgasm the harder I grip his throat, he starts to cough, and still I hold on, his face is a nice fuchsia when I spend.

I remove myself from his cock and straddle his face, he knows exactly what to do.

I'm done... I untie him and tell him he's a good fuck toy and he can masturbate now, which he thanks me for and begins immediately. This time when he asks to cum I tell him yes.

Damn I'm nice.

The 3 of us arrived at the party late. I was ready to play immediately. I said my hello's and then pulled billyboy into the closet.

I sent the beautiful boys for the cuffs & hood. Once billyboy was secured in the closet the blow began. I brutally punched his chest and arms, occasionally stopping to lick or bite him. Every now and then I would slam him roughly into the wall. I undid his tight leather pants and pulled them down around his knees. He looked so lost, so vulnerable. I find it so appealing to leave the pants around the knees or ankles... makes it feel more dirty. billyboy was rock hard so evidently he felt dirty. I laughed when he started shaking his head no and begging me to stop. We both knew he didn't mean it... but couldn't help himself. I'm not sure how long I abuse him in the wood-lined converted closet. I released his arms and lifted the hood so him mouth was exposed and told him to thank me. He immediately dropped to his knees and began kissing and licking my boots. I let him. I then turned my back to him and he knew what was to be done. He started kissing my ass through my tight leather shorts. He always wants to be a good boy.

squirrel was next. We sat of the floor, I spread my legs and pulled his back to my chest. I inserted the first 16g needle into his chest on the left side above the nipple. It was wonderful to feel him shudder. I worked slowly inserting needle after needle. When I'd was done with the left side; I grabbed his hair and jerked his head until his neck was exposed and then I sunk my teeth into his soft neck. He moaned {lol - and so did the beautiful boy who was sitting nearby}. I then started lining the right side of his chest with needles too. Occasionally stopping to lick or bite his neck {come on... it was right there}. Then I pulled him tighter to my chest, draped my fishnet clad legs with my knee high combat boots over his legs and held him securely. Then I began to cane the needles... as I expected he loved it. I could feel his hard cock throbbing against my boot... so I ground the boot into it a bit. Such a slut.

beautiful boy was next. I asked him if he wanted it the easy way or the hard way. Unfortunately he picked the easy way. So I gently swept his legs and took him down... gently. Then I climbed on top of him. I was feeling pretty high by then... I wanted to play a game. We played the 5 deadly venom game. Don't ask. It went something like me naming a venom {gotta think old cheesy karate movies}... and then poking his chest roughly until he squirmed and laughed... again and again and again. He'd try to not move, but I was not to be deterred. Poor bruised boy.

It was late and I was ready to go home and fuck. So the beautiful boy dropped billyboy and myself off at the apartment. The beautiful boy drew a bath for me. Then it was on... and once I got off it was time for bed. I told him if he was quiet he could masturbate on his little pallet at the foot of my bed.

The beautiful boy came over last night... I'd warned him that he was going to bleed for me. He was very nervous, bleeding isn't his bag. After dinner I got out what was needed and we settled in. He asked if he could zone out on tv while I did it... I laughed and said sure.

That didn't last long a few cuts and he was beggin to go upstairs. So upstairs we went. He laid there grimacing while I carved a small snake on his right shoulder. I'd planned a large cutting but to my dismay the snake wanted to be small. ~shrugs~ What's a girl to do.

After the bleeding stopped the laughing started. I teased and poked and pinched and tickled until we both had tears running down our faces. The levity was much needed; the beautiful boy has had a rough couple weeks at work. Laughter always makes things better.

Once the laughing was over I popped something in his ass and orgasms were had by all.

Nothing better than blood, laughter and sex.

Once his hand where tied behind his back, I roughly pulled them up and secured them to the I-bolt in the ceiling. I then shoving my panties into his mouth and sealed his lips with ducttape. I covered his head with a hood.

I started off slowly teasing, scratching and biting him. Paddling him and blowing him at the same time. He'd beg me to stop, so I'd stop both until he begged me to continue. I remember beating his ass with various paddles. But the order gets fuzzy as the play becomes more intense. At some point I release his arms from being elevated from behind and move them to directly over his head. I knew he'd last longer that way.

I started shoving him around roughly and growling while I bit and punched him. This went on quite awhile and he was rock hard and shaking his head no no no. The more he begged me not to the rougher things became. At some point the paddles came back out. He was crying quite hard. I told him he needed this and I wasn't done yet so he had to take it.

Eventually he hung there exhausted. I lowered him to the floor but kept his arms bound and attached to the I-bolt. I wasn't done with him yet. I soothed him for a bit and then I dragged him around to the position I wanted; nice and stretched out. I took the paddle and started beating his ass again. He struggled and twisted to his stomach, I'd give him a break between blows. Then I would tell him to roll over because he needed more. Reluctantly he did as he was told. He was soon in tears again. The beating continued until I was satisfied. I held him and let him cry it out.

I eventually removed the ducttable and panties from his mouth. I soothed and teased him and eventually the glazed smile appeared on his face. I suffocated him until he came. He was a good albeit tired boy.

They say a pictures worth a thousand words... So I'll shut up and show you the pictures

( beautiful boy pinned - 5/17/6 )

( billyboy in a bag - 5/18/6 )

( billyboy inked - 5/20/6 )

Had a nice weekend.

A group of people came over Friday night for the Crossroads meeting... we figured out the mechanics to doing a multi-person suspension at BM at the end of the month. I will make sure I post some pics of that... should be pretty awesome. The beautiful boy will be the center piece.

Sat all 3 of us met for the MAsT meeting then headed to a private party. We had a fine time at the party. I chained billyboy to the floor and abused him nicely. The beautiful boy climbed shyboy like a tree and beat the hell out of him. All in all I'm pretty sure everyone was happy as clams!

Sunday was Mother's Day. I was up at the crack of dawn to head to the holy-roller-dances-with-snakes-church and then to my brother's house. Mom seemed pretty happy with the days events. After hanging with my niece & nephew I am once again thrilled that I have no children.

Sunday night the beautiful boy and his wife came over and performed "meals on wheels." I was very touched that they brought my a yummy dinner complete with dessert. Good food and good company is always nice.

In other news...

-things maybe settling down with NTGF it seems she is definitely moving in with D, she even cut him this weekend. He's a nice guy, hopefully they will reach an understanding that will help them both.
-the Camero finally sold... weeeeeeeee... $3,000... more than I thought I would get for it. That will be enough to pay off an old bank loan, but not much left afterwords... Oh well, easy come, easy go.
-making a list and checking it twice for Flipside. Gonna be a wild experience again this year. 5 days of camping in 100+° weather with a high likely hood of scattered thunderstorms.

Some people are just soooo happy to be tied the fuck up!

( gotta love dirty pictures )

billyboy came over last night... woof... he's such a little fucking hottie. Especially in the cheerleaders outfit I got him... all abs & hard cock... what more could a girl want?

I stripped him out of the luscious cheerleaders outfit leaving him in the nasty whore high heels. I stuffed his face with the inflatable gag and covered his face with the latex hood. I knew breathing was going to be difficult from hear on out.

I tied him to the bed and started off with the cane. I removed the gag and then the beating began in earnest. I'd paddle and cane him for a bit then climb on top of him and rub myself on his warm sore bottom. He would be crying one minute and moaning in pleasure the next. Again and Again. Once I'd reached a release I walked around to the bed and sat down in front of him. He was crying very hard and was very scared. I got some latex polish from the drawer and slowly polished the hood he was wearing while he calmed himself. The motion of the polishing was very soothing for him.

Then I released his rope and had him sit on the edge of the bed and stretch. I could tell he was still very scared, so I decided to remove the blindfold. This calmed him down quite bit. then I lightly touched his cock and it was immediately rock hard and his hips were rocking. I teased him for awhile... watching him try to wiggle his hips.

Then I bound his arms behind his back again and lead him into the bathroom. I had him get in the tub and lay on his back. Then I stood over the top of him. I seriously considered peeing on him... but performance anxiety is a bitch ~heavy sigh~ So instead we opted for plan B.

Plan B... I recently saw an article on water torture. I slowly let cold water run into the tub... at first only enough to splash him a little bit. Then I would take small amounts in my had and drizzle them onto him. He was shivering in short order. Then I started to fill the tub. Once he was shivering a lot I started to add hot water. Until the tub was nice and warm for him. He looked very sexy in the black latex hood in the white tub. Once the water became too hot for him he began to beg for cold water. Then I drained the hot water and started adding the cold again.

Poor boy was in hell... but I'll be damned if I didn't find his suffering incredible. I was all wound up and ready for nasty dirty sex.

I'll try to post some pics later this weekend... didn't get any tub pics :( I was waaaaaaaaay to into things to get pics then - lol.

I've got some friends coming over tonight for suspension bondage. Should be interesting.

I AM: bored as hell
I WANT: hot nasty boy on boy on girl sex
I WISH: billyboy was bi
I HATE: drama
I MISS: making the ugly boy's eyes roll back in his head
I HEAR: dead people
I WONDER: how I can make billyboy bi
I REGRET: NOTHING
I AM NOT: like the girls your mother warned you about
I DANCE: like an epileptic
I SING: even worse than I dance
I CRY: with joy when the boys bleed
I AM NOT ALWAYS: hurting young sexy boys
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: boys shudder and cry
I WRITE: poetry for the dead that I hear talking to me
I CONFUSE: most people who know me
I NEED: to be fucked in the ass with the big black dildo
I SHOULD: stay off the yahoo im
I START: trouble
I FINISH: trouble

The beautiful boy and I went to dinner to discuss how things were with "us" and our strange poly "thing." I have a person who is running amok in my life right now... we will call her NTGF {not the girlfriend}. Her and I have a "history" and her being in my life now is my own damn fault. Sometimes I'm just too TOO. ANYWAY... Her boyfriend just dumped her flat on her ass and she's been getting WAY to into my life since then. Saturday she fucked the beautiful boy's wife's boyfriend {snorts - poly thing}. Sunday she started flirting with billyboy {which I shut down quickly and none to politely... fuck all that}. Her and I had a Come to Jesus discussion on Monday. The beautiful boy & billyboy are MINE and completely off limits to her. I will not allow her to come between us . I'll pop a cap in her ass before I allow that. LOL! I'm hoping she will hurry up and move in with this new guy D and they will live happily ever after OR she will keep hooking up with the other guy W and they will live happily ever after OR she'll find another someone who is NOT my boy's wife's boyfriend and she will slowly step away from my "thing." I like her and want her to be happy... but I want her happy in her own "thing."

The beautiful boy talked about how to keep what we had on the right track, where we would like to see it go in the future, and how to move it from a liquid state into a more solid one. Too soon for a perminate collar or a contract... but definitely time for something MORE. We are both on the same page with that. :D

Heart to heart talks are awesome... BUT... I do so love to play...

The poor beautiful boy was squirming all over the bed... one hand locked on his cock while I shoved the needles into his chest, stomach & thighs! I made him promise that no matter what happened he wouldn't let me fuck him while the needles were still in him. He was almost in tears by the time we were done. Once the needles were removed he blew me eagerly... then I shoved my panties into his mouth, held him down and fucked the hell out of him.

All in a Wednesday night!

Tags: ramblings

I just got two boxes of 100 10 & 12 guage needles... HOT DAMN!

It's going to be like forcing a fucking razor sharp straw into a fat juicy tomato... woof!

Come to Daddy!

Insomnia is eating my brain... night after night after night after mother fucking night.... Or maybe the insomnia is causing my brain to eat itself.

Either way... I'm not hungry anymore.

Rain rain go away come again some other day.

I had another rockin weekend...

Both the boys attended a party with me Sat night. And once again we hit the ground running.

I started off by tieing billyboy to the bondage table and beating/tickling him until he cried... next it was mummifying the beautiful boy... while he was restrained I did some breath play and talon work on billyboy... then a nice punching scene with the beautiful boy... then stocks and flogging for billyboy.

All in all a damn fine night! Woof

billyboy came over last night. I'd been jonsing all day to play. I showered and arranged the bedroom prior to his arrival. I was ready to roll as soon as he walked in the door.

His dick was hard when he walked in the apartment. He'd obviously been looking forward to coming over as well. I had him bring me his cuffs & silver collar. Once those were locked on I had him put on his new fine latex hood. ( hood pics ) He then swept the floor and did a few other chores. It was hard to keep my hand off him while he worked.

He came upstairs and I had him kneel by the bed. I attached the blindfold & mouth piece to his hood, cutting him off from outside influences. Then I lead him to the cedar chest which I'd moved out and covered with a blanket. I had him kneel at one end and stretch the length. Then I tied him to it so he couldn't move. I'd decided that I was going to play in silence... no music, no talking, no nothing.

I started off caressing him and licking and biting his back. Softly at first then harder and more intensely. Then I sat on the floor behind him between his legs {so he couldn't close them}. I used a cane, paddle & a wooden spoon on him. His bottom and the back of his legs were red a quivering. I could hear him crying into his hood. Then I reached between his legs and stroked his cock. He jumped like he been struck again. I stroked his bulging cock while I spanked his red bottom with the vicious wooden spoon. I'd take breaks when needed and rub the edge of the spoon on his asshole and he'd moan and try to lean into it. He was on the edge of orgasm when I stopped and left him moaning on the chest.

I then used the feeldoe on him. When I put the head near his asshole he arched into it. I slipped it in slowly at first and eased up on top of him. He was still tied securely at this point. I worked his ass with enthusiasm. He was moaning and begging in no time. I moved him from the chest to the bed w/out removing the blindfold or mouth piece. I laid him on the bed on his side and mounted him again. I fucked his ass till I came.

I had him stand next to the bed with his hands by his sides. I then wrapped him from shoulder to ankles in cling-wrap; next I used a tight black shrink-wrap. Tight, hot, thick. Then I tackled him onto the bed. ROFL. I finished the wrapping off {had to do his feet}. Completely cut off. I left him alone for awhile.

Then I started caressing him. He moaned and strained towards my touch. I knew exactly where his cock was and wasn't the least bit surprised to find it hard and ready. I rubbed my hand over it and he went nuts. I got a vibrator and laid it right on top of the covering. He was straining to get closer to it. Again I made him wait. Finally I cut a small hole in the wrapping right above his cock and worked his cock free. It went from semi to completely rock hard in a matter of seconds.

It was time for the real torture... NOT... lol. I started with slowly gently caressing him, lightly licking his cock then blowing on it. Sometime he started beggin... again and again like a chant; "Please Miss @#$% don't stop. Please Miss @#$% don't stop." Such urgency in his voice. I'd take a cold drink of water then put his cock in my mouth and listen to him beg even louder. Then I'd spank his cock lightly and hear him moan. I'd leave him alone for awhile and watch him struggle. Then I'd start again. Pleasure vs Pain. Anything was better than when I'd just leave him there with his cock hard. The only part of his body that wasn't disconnected.

I was very worked up and decided it was time to take care of myself again. And I had a nice hard cock right there. So I decided to take advantage of the situation. I climbed on top of him and started fucking him. I thought he was going to go crazy. Again and again and again he begged for me to keep going. Every time he'd get ready to cum I'd back off and/or change rhythm. I was NOT ready for him to have a release. I wasn't finished with him yet. I thought he was going to lose all control when I cam. But he was a good boy and managed to keep it together for awhile longer.

I let him catch his breath for a little while before I started in on him again. I got a nice cool wipe and cleaned him up and he started his chant "Please Miss @#$% don't stop. Please Miss @#$% don't stop." After all he'd been through I decided he deserved to cum. I worked him up slowly but surely and when he his chant turned into begging to be able to cum I told him yes. He thanked me again and again and again as he came.

I left him mummified while he calmed down. I knew he'd be hot, tired and drained. When he was ready to be freed I slowly put surely cut him out of his encasement. When he was free from the wrap I wrapped him in a towel and helped him to sit up.

When he came out of the hood he had a perma-grin that was there for the rest of the night. Which consisted of pizza & SouthPark. Not a bad way to end an evening.

Things have been crazy here... weeeeeeeeee... and what a ride ~weg~

The beautiful boy came over on Tues of this week. We headed to Hooter's where the waitress cooed over his accent. After some fried pickles and a salad we headed back to the house. I had him shower and prepare the strap-on and other items needed for the evening. Then I had him kneel by the bed and wait.

I blindfolded him and had him suck my strap-on. His mouth was greedy with it, I enjoyed watching him suck and lick it eagerly. I'd jack it into his waiting mouth. A few times he gagged on my cock and I'll be honest... it just made me hotter! I inserted the vibrating egg, then fucked his ass thoroughly! He has been needing a rough ride for quite awhile!!! And I was more than ready to give it to him. I decided to cover his balls with clothespins while I fucked his ass. He was rock hard the entire time. I'd reach down and stir the clothespins and watch him writhe around. I found myself growling in his ear with the effort and shear force I was using to fuck through him. It was very good for me. He was very verbal the entire time {which is a huge turn on for me}. I slipped into a latex glove and cover his dick with lube and began to jack him off while I fucked him, slowly removing the clothespins while I did.

It's good to be queen.

billyboy came over last night.

I had him dress up in his maid/cheerleader outfit.

We started to play and I knocked his contact out... oopppsss... but I found it later... stuck to my butt.